random note

post back: 37 weeks

masa early pregnancy, banyak benda yang kabur2 or tak amik tau sangat. for example epidurals. to the extend that i dont even know the function- cuma tau dia untuk kurangkan sakit and cucuk kat tulang belakang and costly. but now, bila dah 37 weeks and ada orang cakap da menunggu hari ni, gigih nak search for advantages and disadvantages. Ialah, selagi tak kena kat diri sendiri ni, kita pun xtau and tak amik tau.

yang i faham, kalau opt for c-section/operate mmg akan kena amik epidural. kalau kat gov hospital, doc mmg takkan bagi amik epidural unlike swasta dia akan ikut or offer u epidurals. nak kata zero risk-TIDAK. mana ada benda takda risk kan? As for now, I really berdoa and hope that i tak amiklah epidural. Sebab HB i kat ada rendah2 jugak masa pregnant. So ada terbaca kalau amik BP akan drop dengan cepat. Lagi satu, bila dah numb bahagian bawah, susah nak rasa bila nak kena push. But that just it, not being there "delivery" boleh la cakap xnk kan. Takut nanti dah ada dalam OT lain ceritanya.

At one phase of my pregnancy period, im so excited buying stuff for my baby, at certain level, im busy looking for a tukang urut, nanny, ada pulak busy cari kat mana nak deliver masa awal pregnancy. so excited! Rasa takut nak bersalin tu dah beransur surut as time goes by. I can't wait to see my baby and be a mother, InsyaAllah. 

Skrg ni tgh busy baca pasal hypnobirthing. Kagum bila baca blog orang yang dapat control emotion during contraction. Bila fikir ikut logic, mmg betul kalau we manage untuk kawal minda and mindset--we can control the pain as well. I pernah terfikir, kalau masa sakit contraction tu, kita tgk cerita korea, bole tak agak2 divert kan rasa sakit tu? Haha. Or apa benda yang i boleh buat for diversion?