Dear Zac Imran

one of my friend kehilangan insan yang sangat dia cintai. she gave birth to her son on 29th May 2016 and the next day anaknya meninggal. Innalillah. i baru tau semalam on 29th June! itu pun bila dia post kat fb. mengalir air mata, anak yang dikandung for 38 weeks meninggal selepas lahir. Allahu.

besar dugaan dia. tak terkata. tak tertanggung. even mendengar. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya sayang benar Allah SWT kepada anak syurga itu dan ibu bapanya. Pasti tunggu di depan pintu syurga. 

she told me thru w/a : It doesnt get easier by time. I dont know how people can say that.

menitis air mata. i want to be next to her. i want to hug her. i want to be just with her.

we are not that close. but she's my friend, which i dont have many.

I went to her house directly, bringing my son. I want her to see him, so she could hug and kiss him just like hugging and kissing her son (i got her permission to bring my son). 

There's no word that can ease her pain. If there's any, i think she had heard enough. 

So we just chitchatting. Talking and sharing experience. And moment masa dia cerita anak dia lahir hingga ke ICU and meninggal atas riba dia, she cried. I cant even look at that face. Muka dia sembam-u can tell that she'd be crying too much for so long. Ya Allah, kau kuatkanlah dia. Sesungguhnya Kau takkan menguji hambaMu, melainkan dia mampu menanggungnya. 

U mmg insan terpilih babe. 

Ya Allah, semoga dia terus kuat. 

Zac Imran bin Muhammad Zuhaili, your mother loves u so much. I love you too. Tenanglah Imran di sana. 

Dear Izzati, i takboleh nak cakap benda ni senang because its not. But pls, stay strong and teruskan journey ni. U insan terpilih. I tak boleh cakap masa akan heal your pain, but i hope one day u akan sangat strong untuk bangun dan teruskan perjalanan you. The pain is beautiful. 

Semoga Allah sentiasa bersama-sama kita. InsyaAllah.

Pakar Kanak-Kanak Dr Saiful

After 3 weeks and my TA da fully recover, kami diuji lagi di Bulan Ramadhan. My TA batuk batuk dah 2hari and setiap kali batuk berair mata dia *sobs* ibu mana yang tahan tgk. Bila text nursery katanya cuti sekolah ni mmg ramai budak batuk and ramai jugak dah berjangkit. Lagi sedih bila dengar.

Dear the other parents; i faham u semua maybe cuti da habis, anak da besar mungkin, atau u may have your own reason; fine. Tapi anak i ni da penah sakit sekali and the lungs already affected. Bila kena mcm ni lagi, dia lagi senang kena balik. Me and my hubs home care gilir gilir jaga my TA. Cuti kami pun running low. =.= and nursery, maybe at some point, u kena juga amik anak anak yang sakit, but the least u could do is to asingkan mereka yang sakit dan sihat. THE LEAST. Or maybe text and tell us ada anak orang sakit kat nursery, since TA sensitive, could u figure something out?

So yes, again. He is sick. He is just 4 months old. I cant bring him to work. I cant focus. And its too cold he might get running nose pulak. What option do I have? So we decide bawak pegi Pakar Kanak-Kanak Dr Saiful di Sungai Chua, Kajang. Since my last visit sangat sangat berpuas hati, we came back.

The location:

Poliklinik Pakar Kajang, Pakar Kanak-Kanak Dr. Saiful

No 15, Jalan M/J 1

Taman Majlis Jaya

43000 kajang

Selangor

Tel: 03-87335798

landmark: Hong Leong Bank, Public Bank, KFC Sungai Chua Kajang

My comment:

Kalau u all masuk tgk pack dengan orang ramai, pegi tanya counter dulu sebab dalam tu ada 2 doctor. Satu pakar kanak-kanak satu lagi pakar Ear Nose Throat (ENT). Most of them p jumpa the other doc jugak.

Masa last visit mmg agak lama maybe lepas working hours, tapi kali ni pegi pukul 11 tengahari so hanya 4 orang saja before us. 

What i like about the doctor? He is so baik, friendly and ada banyak toys (not only inside his room but also dekat stethoscope) mama pulak excited. He is very calm. Very detail. and i just like him likedat. My husband like him also. Sangat suit his personality dengan doctor kanak-kanak. 

And yes, the consultation fees also not that expensive. For our second visit ni RM38 only. RM30 for consultation and RM8 for the medication. Mmg highly recommended! 

So berbalik pada sakit my TA, doctor bagi ubat batuk. Makan sehari 2 kali lepas susu. Kalau seminggu tak baik kena dtg balik bagi ubat nak kuatkan paru-paru (kalau x baik) so, TA kena sihat! Which mean I cannot send him to nursery since semua orang sakit. 

Solution?: Nasib baik Allah permudahkan urusan kami. Mama dapatkan Kak Ti to the rescue. We go pick her up right away and now TA duduk rumah and dapat special care =.=

Mummy and daddy can go to work at ease, alhamdulillah.

Respiratory Syncytial Virus (RSV) Pengalaman Mama

My Thaqif Asyraf is not well. Previously kena admit di Hospital Putrajaya due to RCV infection. Nama panjangnya Respiratory Syncytial Virus. Lamanya duduk ward for 3 days *sobs* Well how it happen?

History: MY Thaqif Asyraf baru hanta ke nursery and dalam 5 days terus demam. Mula mula ingat demam biasa so we only took him to KK near our house. So doc cakap demam mmg tinggi (37-38c) sikit but kalau 3 hari tak surut kena dtg balik. Doctor bagi ubat bontot, ubat demam syrup and ubat titis dalam hidung untuk selsema. 

We didnt use the ubat bontot since doc kata kalau da tinggi sangat 39c baru bagi. So we bagi the other 2 only. And being too worried, i pun google la petua2 untuk hilangkan demam, selsema and batuk. My Thaqif Asyraf start dengan demam, lepas tu selsema and batuk later on. 

We tried almost everything but result dia not very satisfying. Yes, I did that asam jawa (kepala, in sock, semuala), yang letak muka dekat hot water dalam baldi (he turn out merajuk) mandi salt water, tampal babyfever semualah. None reduce his pain and become worst. 

So we decide untuk bawak my Thaqif Asyraf jumpa pakar kanak-kanak dekat Pakar Kanak-Kanak Dr Saiful, Kajang (recommended by my sister). After doc examine, doc buat refer letter ke HPJ. Doc bagi nap and suruh terus pegi HPJ Emergency since masa tu pun da malam. Ya Allah, masa tu takutnya sebab nafas thaqif cepat sangat and paru paru bengkak. 

Alahai, kesian anak mama. 

Sampai Emergency, HPJ. Nurse kat luar yang buat saringan terus attend to us and bawak masuk ke yellow zone untuk examine by doctor. (sangat cepat and pantas; imagine i blom even daftar!) Lps tu doctor check check and masuk kan ubat ikut bontot. And buat x-ray (the machine come to him). Sedihnya mama tgk anak mama. And doctor decide untuk masuk ward malam tu.

Bermula la kehidupan baru mama di ward bersama-sama si sayang thaqif. Tidur sama-sama and 24 jam pandang muka anak mama. Sedih sebab sepanjang jaga dia masa pantang, anak mama sihat. Tapi hanta sekejap 3 hari da sakit. I dont want to ask nursery yet, nak tunggu result dulu takut mmg dia ke yang sakitnya. Tapi ini semua ujian Allah untuk mama, papa and thaqif asyraf. 

Doctor amik blood sample and sampel kahak untuk test. For a start, thaqif on 24 hours oxygen and nap every 3 hours. Thaqif rimas la dengan semua benda kat tangan dia, hidung dia segala. But, i have to be strong for him! 

Ayah pegi kerja. Mama stay in. Alhamdulillah dapat katil yang mama pun bole tidur sama. Maybe sebab thaqif baru 3 months so mama kena tido dengan thaqif bagi susu. Satu bilik ada 4 rooms and add on another 2 jadi ada 6 bed in a room. Still, very comfortable and clean!  

After 3 days, doc bagitau my Thaqif Asyraf kena RSV infection. Jadi mama pun gigih la belajar what is it and all. To mummy out there, symptom dia hanyalah demam, batuk and selsema. And me as a first mother, mmg banyak benda tak tau and not aware off. Sila perhati anak anak masa dia bernafas. Make sure paru paru dia tak besar/bengkak. In my case, i mmg perasan paru2 dia lain and nafas pun mcm susah. Pls, terus bawak pegi hospital. Because we dont know sampai bila anak kita boleh tahan nafas mcmtu. 

RSV infection mcm bad cold. Doctor cakap very common and very contagious. And tak semua yang kena RSV ni teruk, ada yang boleh treated normally but to some babies, it can lead to pneumonia and other problems. It attacks noes, eyes (thaqif x), throat and lungs. It spread when you cough, sneeze or share food/drinks. And YOU CAN GET IT AGAIN AND AGAIN. 

Symptoms dia ialah batuk (cough), stuffy or runny nose (selsema), sore throat (sakit tekak), earache (telinga) and of course fever! Baby akan takda energy not active like usual, cranky most of the time and minum susu sikit. And thaqif ada trouble breathing and wheezing. So doc pakai alat to check his oxygen level and heart beat for the first 4 days. 

Nak share sikit apa yang doctor bagitau masa kat hospital. 

1. Untuk lega kan anak or easier for them to breathe and sleep, tinggi kan kepala anak sikit. Jangan bagi flat atas tilam.

2. Sedut hidung baby kalau baby tak boleh nak bernafas atau susah nak tidur. In my case i bagi ubat yang titik kat hidung tu. And i also beli spray mcm gamba kat bawah ni. Beli kat watson. But, husband je yang reti pakai. I cannot use this sebab dia mcm takut sikit. I much prefer yang titik dalam hidung. 

Recovery period as mentioned by doctor mmg lambat. 3 weeks ke sebulan. And doctor advice at least 2 weeks home care after discharge. sebab tu lama dekat hospital sebab doctor nak pantau pernafasan thaqif. The fisio therapist also ajar mama cara2 nak tepuk belakang thaqif untuk keluarkan kahak. Lama anak mama kat hospital sebab thaqif baby lagi and tak reti nak keluarkan kahak sendiri. 

Gigih la mama menepuk anak mama ni most of the time. And ayah being very supportive in helping me through out. And mummy2 mesti banyak sabar. baby mmg susah nak tidur and cranky sangat. Susah nak even breastfeed sebab hidung dia sumbat kan. So tak selesa lah. Kena banyak banyak sabar and borak2 dengan baby. Lepas baby da baik sikit, dia active mcm sedia kala. Since my baby dah sangat active (sampai cabut tempat masuk ubat); doctor bagi la balik with home care.  And finally after 6 days baby pun discharge lepas magrib. Alhamdulillah.

Mcm mana thaqif boleh dapat this RSV Infection?? DARI NURSERY ada parents yang degil and hanta anak yang batuk ke nursery. baby pulak tu so sama la tempat dengan thaqif. haihhh. 

HPJ? This is my first experience STAY IN kat government hospital. And IM VERY SATISFIED.

Kenapa? Since mula mula masa kat emergency I dont have to wait at all. belum sempat masuk pintu nurse dah dtg ke arah me and baby. I bagi refer letter and terus bawak pegi green zone and next yellow zone. 

Nak tunggu hanta pegi ward also tak lama. Seriously. The doctor especially yang pakar tu akan explain to me everytime dia visit. Hari hari akan ada 2 kali doc visit yang pakar. Sebelum pakar dtg akan ada satu doctor dtg and tanya condition baby (rasanya HO) lepas tu dia akan dtg and explain kepada another doctor (MO i rasa) and kali ketiga another doctor and i rasa tu yang PAKAR. Haha. Boleh tak assume cmtu! Tapi i suka je doctor dtg check2 Thaqif berapa kali pun haha. Mula mula penat tau semua orang dtg akan tanya the same question and i da jadi hafal jawapan2 dia. Not even that, i hafal jawapan katil hujung sekali jugak! Haha nampak sangat kitorang mummy2 ni semua takda kerja sampai dengan setiap pesakit punya explanation! Mama cakap i busy body but seriously u cant help it but listen. Hihi.

Oh, jangan salah sangka. I tak rasa procedure dorang ni leceh. I rasalah, lebih kepada nak bagi exposure to the new doctor. Kalau tak examine and experience cmna nak jadi doctor kan? Its okay. Me okay with it.

The food? Well, honestly, i dont like it. Haha. Ye la makanan hospital mana ada orang suka kan. Same goes to me. So everyday husband akan hanta food delivery! Yay. And and husband senang nak naik hanta food/teman baby masa I mandi/mandikan baby and all. They are very considerate! Tapi parents only la. But salah sorang je boleh stay in. 

Mama nak pump pun senang. Ada freezer. Mama da buat wad tu mcm rumah sendiri. Sikit lagi je nak bawak satu almari dtg. Haha. And check out process untuk thaqif asyraf sangat cepat mudah and senang. Alhamdulillah.

Oh and the staff here are all helpful and friendly! The mummies too.

So yes, i dont wish to come here again with thaqif but if it has too; we dont mind staying here again. InsyaAllah.