Dear Zac Imran

one of my friend kehilangan insan yang sangat dia cintai. she gave birth to her son on 29th May 2016 and the next day anaknya meninggal. Innalillah. i baru tau semalam on 29th June! itu pun bila dia post kat fb. mengalir air mata, anak yang dikandung for 38 weeks meninggal selepas lahir. Allahu.

besar dugaan dia. tak terkata. tak tertanggung. even mendengar. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya sayang benar Allah SWT kepada anak syurga itu dan ibu bapanya. Pasti tunggu di depan pintu syurga. 

she told me thru w/a : It doesnt get easier by time. I dont know how people can say that.

menitis air mata. i want to be next to her. i want to hug her. i want to be just with her.

we are not that close. but she's my friend, which i dont have many.

I went to her house directly, bringing my son. I want her to see him, so she could hug and kiss him just like hugging and kissing her son (i got her permission to bring my son). 

There's no word that can ease her pain. If there's any, i think she had heard enough. 

So we just chitchatting. Talking and sharing experience. And moment masa dia cerita anak dia lahir hingga ke ICU and meninggal atas riba dia, she cried. I cant even look at that face. Muka dia sembam-u can tell that she'd be crying too much for so long. Ya Allah, kau kuatkanlah dia. Sesungguhnya Kau takkan menguji hambaMu, melainkan dia mampu menanggungnya. 

U mmg insan terpilih babe. 

Ya Allah, semoga dia terus kuat. 

Zac Imran bin Muhammad Zuhaili, your mother loves u so much. I love you too. Tenanglah Imran di sana. 

Dear Izzati, i takboleh nak cakap benda ni senang because its not. But pls, stay strong and teruskan journey ni. U insan terpilih. I tak boleh cakap masa akan heal your pain, but i hope one day u akan sangat strong untuk bangun dan teruskan perjalanan you. The pain is beautiful. 

Semoga Allah sentiasa bersama-sama kita. InsyaAllah.